Dec 13
As you may recall from previous posts, I’m a graduate student, PhD, to be exact. This means that I’m pretty much self-employed, underpaid, stressed out about my lack of progress, and full of procrastination. Why? Because it’s actually pretty hard (dammit ;)) to do research, especially when you’re a “do-er”. I consider myself a “do-er”. Give me a job where there’s a ton of paperwork to be munched through, spreadsheets calculated, reports, written, even things coded, and I’m fine. Happy as a lark. Phone ringing? No problem. Voice mails, emails, in-person interruptions, fires to be put out? Hah, I chew on you for breakfast.

Research, on the other hand, is hard. I love what I’m doing, but it’s just a damn big thing that you can feel completely overwhelmed and not know what to start. I’ve been trying to get better by forcing myself to do something, anything, research related for several hours a day. Or impose fictitious deadlines for things, but that only works on reasonable sized chunks of stuff. The very nature of PhD research is that it’s so all-compassing, that you can’t even carve off a decent chunk to attach a deadline to.
Anyway, I’ve been working on a research proposal - theoretically a 10 or so page document explaining what problem I’m looking at and how I’m going to attack it. Get Lassie’s pawprint on that, and I’m off the races - just need to finish the actual research and Bob’s my uncle, or whatever. But the document hurts to write. I have a nice vague fuzzy notion of what I’m doing, a few key phrases floating about, an image to insert, and even a format to follow. But it’s one of those things that you just hate to write. Imagine having to come up with the mission and vision statement for your company. (I’ve done that too, and it’s just as painful).
I don’t have an actual deadline for this document - it will be done when it’s done. However, I do have a meeting with my supervisor tomorrow, and it’s the last time I’ll see him for a while, so I wanted to spend today working on the document. We discussed it two weeks ago, and it needed some work. But some of the work was on the icky bits, like the introduction, motivation, etc. So here, I am, nothing on my calendar today except this document revision, and I know that this is the only thing I really want to work on today. But I don’t really want to work on it at all.
So, out come all the tricks I can think of to keep myself on track for today. I’ve got an unschedule, a la “Now Habit” crowd, which I’ve been colouring in with pencil crayons. Green is good - time I’ve spent on the document. Yellow is breaks like lunch, dinner. Pink is me screwing around on the internet. I save black for when I completely fall off the wagon and end up really screwing around, not just lightly exploring the web.
I let myself do things like: work for 45 minutes, take 15 minutes off. Or, work for 45 minutes, take half an hour off. Read my book in between. Numerous coffee breaks. Check my mail or RSS feeds quickly, etc. I realize that multiple breaks of 15 or 30 minutes seems to defeat the purposes, but my goal was to keep starting over and over again, and even if I only got a paragraph or two hammered out in a session, well, that was more than I had done before.
What’s the conclusion? It actually worked. It’s not perfect, but I did manage to clock 6.5 hours of green work time and I have a document, that although a draft, and missing a related work section, is suitable for discussing with my supervisor. I feel exhausted, but somewhat happy. I do feel slightly regretful, because I did spend over 4 hours on breaks/procrastination/rewards. However, I’ve had days that started off badly, like today, where I sat down at my desk in the morning and immediately lost 1.5 hours. Unlike those bad days, today, I was able to kick myself in the ass and write for a bit. Then lose time, then write a bit, etc. etc.
So, what am I trying to say here? After all, I was only about 65% productive today, if you look at the total hours. However, I knew it would be a bad day, and this concept of continually starting, and continually rewarding myself, did get me through it. It’s a technique that I’m going to have to remember in the future, because I just *know* that there are going to be more of these days coming up